3 Years Left|Rap

Three years till I’m gone.
Three years then I’m born.
Three years till I’m free.
Three years then I’m me.
In three years I’ll be done.
Just three years then I’ll run.
Can’t wait for the fun.
Fresh sun here I come.

Three years is some time
But I’m willing to wait
Cause it’d be a crime
To fall prey to their bait
They’ll try and keep me down
But I’m too far ahead
Been dreaming of this
And I’ll fight till I’m dead.

Three years till I rise.
Three years till I fly
Away from this hellhole
To my paradise
In three years I will have
Conquered all my fears
Cause after three years
I’ll be out my dear.

Three years seems long
And yeah I’m not sure
But I have to have faith
Cause that’s always the cure.

Well till then I will wait
With my head up in flames
But trust me three years
Goes by in a daze.

Hey 🙂 I hope you guys liked it because be honest it’s fine if you didn’t but I just wanted to know if you enjoy my raps or if they’re any good or what…so ya please tell me what you think 🙂 This one is about how in three years I’ll be 18 and be legally allowed to do whatever I want (kinda) and so I’ll travel and go out anywhere but here but till then..I gotta wait but it’s worth it. I’m really happy nowadays and that’s actually all thanks to BTS (refer to my post Bangtan Sonyeondan if you are unfamiliar) and of course my friends Edha ( I know you’ll see this ) and Nina (Edha tell Nina about this too) for always being there with my mood swings 😛 I hope I don’t bother you too much.. And lastly I will not forget those 3 or 4 people who regularly like my posts and read them.. you make me so happy.. You know who you are 🙂 I LOVE THE WORLD

 

Bangtan Sonyeondan

Oh god. They make me so happy.

BTS. They are a Korean pop band that’s now got a lot of recognition around the world. They produce and write their own music and they are all very delightful people. BTS is not a band for everyone and I totally understand that. I don’t force anyone to listen to it if they didn’t want to. I respect that but it seems that they just cant do the same. I like BTS. If you don’t that’s fine but you don’t have to hate on me and them just because you don’t like it. I have so many friends that like BTS and I’m happy I get to share some moments with them but its not like I live and breathe BTS. I talk about other stuff too. Its just that they make up so much of me now so I may get carried away.

My point is..don’t hate on me because I like BTS..i don’t hate on you because you don’t like them.. I have lost friends because I like Kpop. My friend has lost some of her friends because they didn’t like it and they thought all she did was talk about them so they just…left? She does talk about BTS a lot and so do I but you should see how happy she is when she talks about them..she literally lights up..I would never want to ruin that. So I was always there fangirling with her even though I didn’t know them that well. And now I do. But no one can accept that im happy because of them. I think they’re hot. You might not. Just listen to what I wanna say or tell me that I talk about it too much. I cant stand that these people just degrade them just because they’re not “my type of music.” My only solution now is to just try and quit talking about it altogether around these kinda people and wait till I can fangirl with my other BTS Army.

Thanks for listening to my rant guys.. I really appreciate it. Just writing what I feel. This applies to almost everything but in my case as of now..its my “weird taste in music” according to some people. SO ya..that’s it..have a nice day 😀

♥Forever and Always♥

I’m losing everything.|Poem.

I’m losing my hair
I’m losing my eyes
I’m losing my patience
I’m losing my mind

I’m losing to stress
I’m losing so much
I’m losing my friends
I’m losing the touch

I’m losing my brain
I’m losing my sight
I’m losing my cool
I’m losing my might

I’m losing to her
I’m losing to him
I’m losing motivation
To get a little slim

I’m losing who i am
I’m losing who i used to be
I’m losing that glam
That I had before this shitty new ‘me’

Hey guys I hope you liked that and by the way…I’m literally losing my hair and eyes…I am very frightened by my hair loss and my eye power keeps growing and I’m scared I’ll be blind by college..it’s really not funny…I hate glasses..So if anyone has any tips or help or anything…please I would appreciate it all! I hope you all liked this 🙂 Thanks byee 😀

       ≤ Forever and Always…right? ≥

Suicide Note

Our lives is only running..

via Daily Prompt: Marathon

I just realised that I haven’t been on WordPress for two months almost..why? Because I’m always busy with school or studies or exams or school..there’s no time for anything anymore. Even reading the newspaper puts me behind on my daily schedule. I feel like for everyone..our lives has become a marathon. I know that’s not really what you would think when someone says the word ‘marathon’ but since I’m always deep and wierd..it’s crazy how we all just fit in to this nice world and never do anything for ourselves until it doesn’t matter. I want to write, I want to cycle and so many other things but I never get around to doing it because something’s always in the way..something that you can’t just push aside or ignore. Sometimes it’s my parents, sometimes it’s school. I don’t know where we have left our happiness but I sure hope I can find mine again. I know people can write better posts for this topic and I’m so glad that I get to read them 🙂 these two months have been crazy..I’ve been studying so much that my brain can’t even process the simple information anymore. And they gave us two holidays after our final exams but after that we have to go back and start studying for 10th grade..it’s crazy how fast I’m growing up and how much I’ve already missed. But I guess I’ll just have to keep moving huh? There’s no turning back..even though that’s what we want the most..

≡Forever and Always ≡

Why am I feeling like this?

This is gonna be kind of a wierd post but…I recently joined Instagram because everyone was on that and even if I only needed homework..no one is on hangouts anymore so Instagram is like the only way. Plus I wanted to so yeah..but the problem is..I’m feeling very scared about what might happen to me because I made an account..or like someone might do something or spread some rumour that would go too far..and I’m getting this really really frightening feeling in my stomach and I hate it. I was just sitting on my bed, holding my knees together and hugging myself and saying that it’ll go away and it’s nothing and all but I’m genuinely really scared..I have honestly no idea why but..just a feeling..hopefully.. Can anyone help me? Yikes..I’m freaking out. Sorry about this post but I have to send this..

At the Border|Poem.

i wrote a poem to the soldiers in the border that protect us every single day and night so we can sleep happily thinking of problems like exams and friends and no food for an hour..while they go through so much just for us. I don’t understand why they do it..they shouldn’t have to…I don’t know..

To the Army we how our heads
Who keeps us far from death
O brave and valiant ones
Who were common men once

They serve our country
With sacrifice and pride
So we can live another day
And see another sunrise

Little do we know
About their lifestyle there
But all they for us is care
Don’t you think that’s a bit unfair?

Finally we say our thanks
To the men of higher ranks
Here is a poem of gratitude
Please forgive our unruly attitude

≡ Forever and Always ≡

They found it..

It seems as though my friends found out my blog..and by friends I mean the ones at school..who were not supposed to find it…I don’t really mind to be honest but it’s just that they don’t understand when I say that I didn’t want people who I know to see it. People judge pretty..harshly and I’ve experienced it first hand so..I’m not around to try that again..and it’s not that I don’t want to share my thoughts or “secrets” with my friends but somethings are just not for people to know just to read and forget or for me to just vent out my feelings..as humans..whatever we don’t do..is weird for us..there’s this guy in my class who no one really likes..I mean like by personality he is said to be..not so nice and stuff but he was my best friend who told me to write this blog and one of my friends who found out about the blog was really surprised and I don’t blame her but..why wasn’t he allowed to be my best friend? By the way..I don’t have any best friends..either I don’t share every moment with them which is usually what best friend is defined as..or they just aren’t willing to stick around..

As far as I wanna go with this post..if you school friends are reading this..just keep it to yourselves..I don’t mind if people read my blog but I don’t want all the people mentioned to get in the drama or I don’t want people judging them and I know I can handle it for sure but I don’t want the other person to have to handle it. So please just..try and understand why I would’ve kept it away from you and not because you aren’t my friend or whatever. And again to be clear..I really do not have any best friends…there’s a lot of things about me that even my “best friends” don’t know..cause that’s just how it is..I’m sorry but..not really sorry. I guess I do need to open up more but then when that happens..ha..ya..no.

∨ Forever and Always Happy With Myself∧

Two sides.|Rap

On one side, she’s crying herself to
Sleep every night
But on the outside, she’s always tough
Always ready to fight
She’s scared like everyone else
And no one could’ve gone through the pain that she felt
She always tried so fucking hard
To make both her parents hard
But she failed each time
And was about to be kicked outta the house
All these inspiration, motivational speeches
In between
Are useless when you’re luck is
Outta the scene
She tried, she stumbled, she fell every time
She cried, she fumbled, but said she was fine
Because that’s how strong she was
Made of platinum and gold
Nobody can hurt her anymore
She reached this stage by selling her soul

Its kinda short but I hope you enjoyed it and ya..writing raps is pretty fun actually. I don’t really know why but it’s a lot better than trying to write poems I guess so that’s why and plus I love eminem..he is like so awesome and it’s so sad how much he had to go through so..ya..

ΞForever and AlwaysΞ

My future.|Rap

On one side, they saying “Take the time to follow your dreams”
On the other, they saying “Hey I actually need the money”
You can do what you want
With your life,use your voice
But it’d be better if you did this or that
Actually you don’t have a choice
I don’t wanna grow up
Provide for a family
That I didn’t ask for
I wanna live my life
And not become someone’s stay-at-home cooking wife
9 to 5 ain’t my jam
I’m destined for greatness
But I’m just sitting in all this middle class garbage
I’m feeling so damn hopeless

They think they know what’s best for me
In reality they really don’t understand
My flow and battery
They don’t know the first thing
That I dance,rap,draw,skate or even sing
And one day it’ll be too late
And I’ll have to end up giving up on my fate
I guess Imma grow up and have 10 part time jobs
Cause I’m the kinda girl that doesn’t know what she wants.

Forever and Always