Those Blank Moments..

You know those times when you randomly don’t know why you are crying? Or smiling? Or just staring at the ceiling? Well those moments come to a lot of us..a lot of times. For me..it’s usually about my friends..the ones away..the ones who don’t talk to me anymore..the ones who are close yet so far..

I love to randomly smile and that’s mostly because of music 🙂 And that will never ever be taken away from me..memories also are a great deal of my happiness in those blank times..it really is the little things isn’t it? Means a lot to someone like me at least..

Staring at the ceiling has become a regular thing for me now because I have seriously given up trying to please people..my parents…my friends..my own self..why do I always feel like I’m not good enough? To all of you…do me a favour and never ever think that of yourselves..you are way too amazing for that shit.

Let this blank moments come and go..but always remember..those moments are the ones where life comes into perspective and you suddenly know what you want 🙂 Good luck everyone. And sorry Ive not posted for so long.. 1. Family trip! 2. Running out of topics..

Also I have a YouTube channel guys!! Ahhhh been doing it for sometime now..go search Megha Shastry (with a ‘y’ thank you) and click the profile with a picture of Joker from Batman 😛 Thanks again!! Love you all very very much..just wanted you to know 😀 HEY! Almost forgot sorry check out this post which is also a post about the daily word prompt that is ‘Blank’ because it’s very beautiful I really enjoyed reading  it so hats off to the blogger!! It was wonderful ❤

Umm..how do I link this to the Daily Prompt Challenge thing? I don’t know..Please help!

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X Forever and Always X

 

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You’re so special..you just never realised.

It’s true when they say ‘it’s better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.’ But there are many arguments to that. Anyway my point is..in a person’s life, there are always special people that they really like but those special people never realise until they are gone. Let me rephrase that. You never realise how special you are in someone’s life until that someone is gone. For me it’s happened both ways. I used to like this guy (yes I suck I know I like too many people aka my weakness) and I found out that he felt the same way and yes it was awesome..don’t judge me. But for sometime I think I liked someone else too and I regret it so much and I didn’t realise how special I am in his life until he left..he’s halfway across the world right now…

But the same thing happened again. Of course the last days with him were so sad and stuff but after he left..in time we started talking again but then he stopped being that guy that everyone (including me) liked..he totally changed..he doesn’t even say bye anymore. And this time he hasn’t realised how special he was to me.. He is my one of my earliest and best friends I could ask for and even as friends I miss him a lot.

Even my friends here, they don’t even know that I would pick them over my family anyday but they will realise when we aren’t that close anymore..but it’ll be too late. None of them text or call me and I’m sure that I’m not the first person on their minds..but I guess it’s alright as long as I consider them my friends. And I really love them all. So I guess what I’m trying to say is..if you find someone special; a friend, a pet even..keep them close..chase after them and even if they may not appreciate it as much as you do now..they will realise how much you would do for them..it may just work out right?

∅ Forever and Always ∅

 

Big dreams..but so far..

Hey guys I’m so sorry I haven’t been posting regularly. I’ve been really low on ideas on what to write and I would love suggestions please. But also I was on vacation! In a nice place called Hampi in Karnataka in India. I will write about it in my next blog maybe but here is another poem (omg stop with the poems Megha!) sorry here it is.

Once I’m old enough
I’m going far away
It’s been extremely tough
But I will leave as soon as I’m ready

I can’t stay here another day
I want to go my own way
Not the one that they all say
My game isn’t for you to play

I hope I chase my dream
Of travelling the world
My best friend and I; the best team
And write beautiful words

I can picture the sunset
Bright on the horizon
While I sit on a boat deck
And the clear water beneath my feet

The more I think about this
The longer our list becomes
Bucket lists and big dreams
We promise to finish our quest

But then again
With so much pain
It hurts me to think
I don’t know how to get there
And my heart begins to sink

-Megha Shastry

XForever and AlwaysX

 

 

Nature at its best.

Hey guys!  My inner poet has come out so here’s another one!! Also I’m running low on what to write for my later blogs..can you guys suggest a few ideas please?? Thank you so much..you guys are like my family..not like..you are my family 🙂

Here’s the poem:

The next time a boy tells you
Oh my gosh you are so beautiful
Take a small look at the sky
Where the free birds fly

No one appreciates nature
In a way that it should be
But the world’s best feature
Is anything but free

I’m looking at a sunset
Spreading through the horizon
It’s hue in so many colours
Bringing life to nearby flowers

The sky a burning red
The sky a mix of shades
Of blue and purple and a tinge of orange
Throwing light in the deepest of caves

If you saw it right now
Your boy would be the last thing on your mind
Looking up at the sky
Leaving all those worries behind
And staring at paradise

Megha Shastry

 Λ Forever and Always Λ

 

Life as we know it.

This is another poem. I’ve been writing a lot of these lately..hope you like it..although I’m not as good as Tanya Sahay with her ‘Enough.’ poem. That was beautiful Tanya!! By the way..mine is pretty long. Please don’t get bored.. I sorry!

When you are young
You play for fun
Don’t care about life
No need of a husband or wife

When you are young
Your dreams are made of joy
Have 101 toys
And your thoughts are complete

As you turn 13
Now begins the flirting
And your dad blames your actions
On being a teenager..

Soon enough your sweet 16
And you’ve graduated a stage of life
Ready for learners license
And finally the talk for a husband or wife

You think finally I’m 18
But life has passed so fast
Now is the time to start creating
Or in the real world you’ll be last

Then comes the job
And the mob of bills to be paid
Losing life as we know it
Serving bosses like maids

Then have an arranged marriage
Then the baby in the carriage
Not at all happy here
The end of your life is near

Soon you’ll be 40 years old
And your story is being told
And then you’ll realise
I’ve been wasting life all this while

It may be too late
Or entirely the beginning
It may upto fate
Or it may end up useless
But either way it goes
You’ll live life to every day
With heads high and stretched toes
You’ll go all the way

You only live once
You only die once
Whichever way you take it
You’ll only be free for now
So choose to which you are fit

-Megha Shastry

Forever and Always ⊗

 

4 Fact Survey!

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Hey! I’ve been tagged by MimiTa and she is extremely good at writing so please first before reading, check out her website!! Anyway here goes..

FOUR NAMES PEOPLE CALL ME OTHER THAN MY REAL NAME:

1.Maggi (love it!!)                                                                                                                                         2.Megs                                                                                                                                                             3.Burj Khalifa (and other tall buildings)                                                                                               4.Shastry (last name..only my brother’s friends used to do that)

FOUR JOBS I’VE HAD: (I’m still in school but like I’ll just whip something up)

1.Birthday Planner (Always plan and make the card and stuff..its really fun)                       2.Moderator of a community on Google Plus (hehe but it’s about music so I’m happy)                                                                                                                                   3.President of the Tall Club (seriously we have positions and stuff..just for fun of course.)                                                                                                                                                          4.Professional Dreamer 🙂

FOUR MOVIES I’VE WATCHED MORE THAN ONCE:

1.Sholay (Hindi movie but very very awesome even though it was shot a long time ago)                                                                                                                                                       2. A Few Good Men (The only Tom Cruise movie I will ever enjoy)                                           3. She’s the Man ( OMG love this!!)                                                                                                       4. *drumroll* Escape to Victory (This is officially the coolest movie I will ever watch)

I personally watch a lot of movies more than once but these came into my head first so..yay! Also like Mean Girls..coz..duh!!

FOUR BOOKS OR AUTHORS I RECOMMEND:

1. DAN FREAKING BROWN (nope it’s just Dan Brown but his writing is extraordinary!!)                                                                                                                        2.Rainbow Rowell (I only read 2 books and they are romance novels but I love them)                                                                                                                                                                    3.Erle Stanley Garderner (Forgive the spellings..but he writes mystery! Woohoo!)             4.The Firm by John Grisham (Oh My God this is so intense and amazing!!)     

FOUR PLACES I’VE LIVED: (nowhere..hence the dream of travelling the world.)

1.California, U.S.                                                                                                                                         2. New Jersey (born there!)                                                                                                                     3. My house                                                                                                                                                    4. My head (lol)

It’s so unfair how my parents visited so many places when I was either not born or very young to not remember anything.. 😦

FOUR PLACES I’VE VISITED: (please don’t make me do this)

1.Neverland (had to grow up though..what a disappointment)                                                   2.My grandma’s house                                                                                                                               3. The bathroom                                                                                                                                       4.The theater

FOUR THINGS I’D RATHER BE DOING RIGHT NOW: (actually i love blogging but nonetheless..answering the question)

1.Traveling duh!                                                                                                                                           2.Not being lazy 😦                                                                                                                                       3. Making my dreams a reality                                                                                                                 4. Running away

FOUR FOODS I’D PREFER NOT TO EAT:

1.Chili                                                                                                                                                               2.Cardammom                                                                                                                                             3. Garlic                                                                                                                                                        4. Ginger

FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:

1. SUBWAY!!                                                                                                                                                   2. Oreo Krushers (or like oreo milkshakes or oreo anything basically 🙂                                   3.Poori (Indian dish!)                                                                                                                                 4.Tacos!

FOUR TELEVISION SHOWS I WATCH: (i don’t watch The Big Bang theory and such..I’m a kid, thank you)

1.Phineas and Ferb                                                                                                                                       2.Teen Titans                                                                                                                                                 3.Fairytail (The best manga eva!!)                                                                                                         4.Kick Buttowski!!

FOUR THINGS I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS YEAR:

1.Meeting my friends in school                                                                                                               2.Friends’ birthdays! (#BirthdayPlanner)                                                                                           3. Celebrations of stuff?                                                                                                                             4. Everything else as well 🙂

FOUR THINGS I’M ALWAYS SAYING:

1.Ka Kaw (Do not ask)                                                                                                                                 2.I miss my friends.                                                                                                                                   3.Like um..                                                                                                                                                     4. I know right!!

FOUR PEOPLE TO TAG:

1. Spoonfullofthoughtsblog – https://spoonfulofthoughtsblog.wordpress.com/ The blog is amazing!! She writes such beautiful posts and she is one of my online inspirations..Thank you so much for that!!

2. https://thoughtsofaseekerblog.wordpress.com/ Oh my gosh!! He writes such inspiring things!! Please read these!! I wish I had friends like him.. AHHH Keep up with whatever you do dude.. I hope you live your life awesomely! (Not that you are not already awesome)

3. https://yourstrulykk.wordpress.com/ AHH why have I not met these extraordinary people?? I wish I could write so well. But please follow her..she writes too good..hope I meet you someday!! 🙂

4.https://talesabouttails.wordpress.com/ I love dogs and who is a better  person to visit than her?? Nobody!! This blog is sooo sweet and cute and everything nice!! I hope you become very famous and stuff so I can say that I know you haha. I love your blog! Also thank you to her because she is one of the first people who read my blogs when I started!! I owe it to you 😀

X Forever and Always X

 

 

I can’t wait to get out.

From the minute I could comprehend what was going on in the world around me aka my family..I have always dreamed (is that a word? Or is it dreamt?) of going to..well, everywhere. Pretty much anywhere but here. My best friend and I already planned everything..when we will get out, what we want to do after that, our buckets list..everything. That’ll be the perfect life. The more I think about it, the more I fear being alive. Like every second here, in these four walls, with my family makes me wanna get out even more. And sometimes it comes to a stage where I sit in my room and cry or cry myself to sleep. It’s come even further;suicide. I don’t wanna do it and I promised myself that it isn’t the only way and I’m better than that but sometimes it feels like dying may just be better than seeing my family scream at each other and bad mouth everyone..they don’t even care about my well being.

I guess the only thing that’s keeping me alive is my best friend and our dreams. Big dreams by the way. He makes me wanna live for something you know? He reminds me that I have a whole life ahead of me and this is just the stepping stone..oh and his life is all sorts of exciting.. I’m jealous all the time. We know where we are going to be, what we are going to do but we barely know each other’s favourite colour. Haha. But I feel like that’s real friendship. Putting aside the mushy stuff, I’m probably not gonna make it through college or even to college for that matter..and yes, my family may disown me (in that case, I’m gonna live with one of my friends hehe) but I feel like no matter how much shit I go through..nothing can make me happier than leaving this dump behind! I know they say family is for life or at least I have a damn family but sometimes it just doesn’t seem right..to me, friends are forever..a good friend is all I need. I’ll get out one day and I’m going to travel the world, under any circumstances. I may be broke, homeless or have no degree (and trust me in India having a degree is really important) but I will be happy. Right best friend? It’ll be worth it. That’s all I could ever want.

∞ Forever and Always ∞

My friends are boys..deal with it.

I just wanted to say..people need to interact with everyone and that’s exactly what I’m doing.ever since I was a child, my parents knew that I had more friends who were boys than girls. Back in the day, you would hold a boy’s hand and no one would say anything. Not even your family would comment. Back in the day, all the kids would hang out together..what happened to that? Parents did. As you grow older, everything around you suddenly changes and you think about how your entire childhood was beautiful but now..it’s gone. No more holding hands, if you even look at a guy, 101 people make 202 assumptions. Sometimes it’s not only your parents..even your friends secretly do this. My friends are dating other people but they have the nerve to tell me not to talk to a particular boy? Wow. Mom and Dad, no matter what to try to do, I will prefer friends who are boys to friends who are girls (sometimes..I do have some amazing exceptions to this and they are girls but..you get the point) and I will hang out with boys in school and I will chat with them on social media. Too bad for you then huh? How am I supposed to believe that you (referring to parents) haven’t talked to the other gender in high school? It’s not possible. And how the hell did you both get married? Anyway jokes on you because your own daughter doesn’t trust you enough.. Or at all.

I have friends who are my age, younger to me and elder to me and most of them are boys and if you can’t respect that..what kind of parents are you? I hope no one else has to go through this..although unfortunately I know that my friends do.. But damn what has the world come to? Oh and to my people who know nothing more than talk shit about others, I will talk to boys, I will make them birthday cards, I will call them and wish them because to me they are as important as any other person. So no matter how many times you pair me up with a guy, I will always agree and laugh it off because I know which battles to fight. So please keep all that shit to yourself because I do not care. I’ve been through so much and learnt a lot..thank the world for that.

                                                  Forever and Always